Anyone else ready for 2020 to be, well, done?
I keep thinking about an end of year post wrapping up everything that this year has been, and well, that’s just kind of hard to do. We all went through 2020, and we (mostly) survived.
2020 was hard.
mentally. physically. emotionally. It’s not the year I imagined back in January when I wrote out all of my lofty goals. It’s not what I expected as January and February passed and it finally started to get a little warmer and Von got a little bigger and we could finally go to playdates where she could play and have fun or we could go to the park and have a good time.
Then the world essentially shut down and for days then weeks then months I was constantly asking “how long will this last? Is this our new forever?”
It was scary and not exactly fun.
but we made it through.
And 2020 wasn’t all bad.
We bought our first house (!!) and I read some really fantastic books. I made a lot of great friends only and found my relationship with Jesus again as I read from the Bible and the Book of Mormon. Von got bigger (even though she yells “I’m little!” anytime anyone tries to say she’s big) and has so much personality and love.
I edited my book and then edited it some more.
Taylor Swift release TWO incredible albums!
We got to learn more about homeownership and all that comes with that.
I’ve been going to therapy regularly since February and while my mental health has sucked a lot this year, I’m also learning new ways to cope with everything that goes on inside my brain.
And at the end of the day, at least this week, as 2020 will come to a close, it feels like we’re on the cusp of something new.
I know that really, not a whole lot will change. Griff will still be working from home. We’ll still be doing virtual church on Sundays and not going out much at all, but 2021 feels new and fresh and I’m holding onto that.
I’m hopeful that even if 2021 isn’t anything like I hope (more normal than this year?!), that we’ll be able to keep slowing down and focusing on the things that matter. Because that’s really what I learned in 2020, about the things that matter.
To me that’s God. My family. Friends. Good books, good food. And creating. Those are the things I want to have more of and do more of in the coming year, and hopefully, I can let the rest just fade away.