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I know a lot of moms love the newborn stage and say it was/is their favorite.
I’m happy for those people, but I wasn’t one of them.
I was so exhausted (and I really really don’t do well on that little sleep), my boobs hurt, I was sore from pushing out a baby. And while I did love smelling her newborn smell and having snuggles 24/7, it wasn’t my favorite stage.
I’m really loving this stage. Everyday Von is learning new words and new things. She loves to have dance parties and snuggle in the morning. Her favorite thing in the morning is to go to the fridge, try to open it, and ask for chocolate 😂 girl, I got you. Just after we we breakfast.
I love how she smiles at me, hugs me, and gives me random kisses. I love that she falls asleep in my arms for most naps and I wouldn’t have it any other way.
We read books and dance and laugh a lot. We also both cry sometimes.
Today we played with this little dog we have. I would chase her with it and say “woof woof woof” and then she would say “woof woof woof” as she ran away laughing.
I really struggled in the beginning of being a mom.
Now I'm trying to enjoy this stage that we’re in and that’s my goal for every next stage of life.
There are hard and beautiful parts of every stage, and I want to be better at seeing more of the good.
This post is not sponsored. I paid for this course and all thoughts and opinions are my own. I'm sharing because it's something that has helped me so much as a mom and I wanted to give you that opportunity as well.As a mom, I want what's best for Von. I want to help her thrive and live her best life and sometimes it can be overwhelming to know what I should be doing every day to help her succeed.I haven't been worried about her development because Von truly is so smart and once she starts or wants something, she goes for it. She went from crawling to walking in just a day because she was like oh, I can walk now and she hasn't stopped since.But there are some things that I haven't really known how to teach her. And one of those is helping her to talk. For a long time I thought that kids just learned to talk, but did you know there are things you can be doing as a mom to help that process even more?I've been following Elise from @huntersofhappiness on Instagram for a few years now. When she launched her course, Talk the Talk earlier this year, I knew it was something that I wanted to buy.You should also know that I am really picky when it comes to parenting books + courses. There is so much information out there that is so overwhelming. I'm also a pretty intuitive parent and don't want to cloud my own judgments and intuition with so much information. But I knew that I wanted this course.
Talk the Talk course is full of tips to help you teach/help your child learn and use language.
I learned so much from this course! The full course (which I purchased) includes 16 videos full of tips and techniques as well as real-life application. Earlier this week they announced that they will now be offering a mini-course at a lower price with the tips and techniques. Which I think is amazing!Taking this course has changed the way I interact with Von, how I talk to her, and I learned so much about what she should be saying at this age and how I can help her to communicate and use language even more.Learning about language and how to use it correctly will set our kids up for success. I want that for Von, but I realized that I didn't know that much about language and speech and communication. I wanted to give her the best and that's really why I took this course.
About the course:
Like I mentioned before, this is a video course full of tips and techniques that you can start using right now to help your child. This course is great for kids 0-3 because even from the very beginning kids are learning and hearing you as you use language. What if you could change a few small things that would make the biggest difference, wouldn't you?I really love this course and it was worth every penny! You can sign up for the course here. Elise is very knowledgable about the subject and you definitely get your money's worth!
Today I woke up grumpy. I'm feeling tired, I haven't showered in days (because I've been using shower time to get some much-needed rest... why is DST still a thing??!) but anyway. My grumpiness didn't fade throughout the day, even though I wanted it to.I tried reading and cleaning and playing with Von. I even turned on The Bachelor before getting annoyed with that too. I was able to FaceTime with my sister and that made things a lot better.And then Von decided that she wasn't going to take a nap which meant that most of the afternoon/evening was spent with her in my arms because she was too grumpy and tired to play on her own.Have you ever made dinner with a baby in your arms? It's a skill I didn't know I had.
I'm really not sharing all of this to complain, I'm sharing to tell what I learned.
As I was making dinner, with Von on one hip/arm and using my other hand to prep and cook everything, I started listening to Girl, Stop Apologizing by Rachel Hollis. I enjoyed Girl, Wash Your Face and was excited to get into her new book.I'm loving it even more than her first book.One line though really stuck out to me.
You Were Made For More
Made for more as a woman, as a mom, as a person. This hit me hard because I've been feeling stuck. I have dreams of being an author and yet there's this part of me that's terrified to actually write. But as I listened to this part of Rachel's book, I felt like her words were exactly for me.Right now I really am looking for more. More joy in motherhood. More joy in the day to day tasks of being a homemaker + stay at home mom. Being more of myself and following more of my dreams.I've been stuck, feeling like I didn't have a real purpose in any of this. Wondering if I can actually do the things that I want to do, and the things that I feel called to do. This little section of the book stood out and hit me hard because it was the exact thing I needed to hear.I don't need to wait for any one's approval or permission to chase my dreams and to better my life. I can do that starting today. This life is our time to improve ourselves and prepare to meet God. I want to be better, I want to be more.I love that I'm learning this now because it makes me excited to teach Von this too. That she has so much potential to do good and create amazing things and learn about God and I want to help her as much as I can.Today was long. Von didn't nap, but thankfully she went to bed pretty easily and I'm just crossing my fingers that she sleeps all night. But as soon as she was asleep, I held her in my arms and looked and her and couldn't help but think "you are made for more baby girl" and I'm so glad that I not only get to be more myself but also help Von be more as well.
Sometimes I forget that Von is just a tiny little human. That it's not her fault when she cries or can't fall asleep because she's so tired. She doesn't know how to be a human. She can't talk or tell me what's bothering her or what she needs. Sometimes I forget that she's just a baby and that I shouldn't hold her to the standard that I hold myself or adults. Because when I do that, I get frustrated.
Sometimes I forget that I'm human too. That I do need to rest and recharge and take breaks from things that are draining. Sometimes I forget that I don't have to do it all alone, that I've got a big support system with Griffin, my family, friends, and of course, God.
Sometimes I forget about God.
Tonight a lot of things changed.
The past few nights have been tough since Von will go to bed then wake up an hour or two later and be awake for a couple of hours. She doesn't really want to play and she isn't cranky but she won't let us rock her or snuggle her even though she's so tired and she just cries and cries and cries if we put her in her crib (I'm not a huge fan of the cry it out method.) And tonight as I was trying to get her down at 8, she was already starting to fight it and I got frustrated real fast.
I put her in her crib and she cried and cried and cried and I went and asked Griffin for a blessing. I was praying and praying and praying but I couldn't get over my feelings of fear that Von would be awake until midnight like she was last night and I couldn't let go of my frustrations.
I'm feeling so thankful for that blessing. It was everything I needed to hear and after I was able to go and pick up Von and even though it took a bit to get her to sleep, she's currently sleeping and I'm praying she'll sleep through the night.
But I also realized a few things (and God told me a few things through Griffin's blessings) Being a mom is a gift, one that I take for granted all too often. I need to focus more on love and less on everything else that I've been focusing on.
I'm going to take a step back from social media for a while so that I can clear my head and stop the constant flow of inspiration (and comparison). I'm writing tonight because this is something that I want to document. And essentially my blog has been my journal in the past and it will be more like that for a while.
I don't know how often I'll post, but I know I'll be talking more about the real stuff instead of trying so hard to be that blogger/influencer that I wanted to be for a while. Right now my #1 job is being Von's mom (and my 2nd is writing a book because I really want to do that and feel called to do that.)
Sometimes I forget who I am and what my purpose is in life at this moment. But I want to remember and I want to be better.