That’s what Von told me tonight as I tucked her into bed.
I mean, she’s only 2.5 and I’m not 100% sure she knows what that means, but maybe she does. Either way, it’s really sweet. Especially on a day like today.
I woke up disoriented this morning, after having 2 PTSD episodes last night. I’m not really sure what triggered me, but it was definitely hard to wake up after spending all day mentally battling my anxiety and then to have a very unrestful night.
A lot of nights have been like that lately. Just like this season last year.
And even though I still have episodes and my anxiety is high, I feel like I’m doing better mentally than I was a year ago. Maybe it’s because 2020 has been one hell of a year. I’ve lost a lot but i’ve also gained a lot. I’m not really sure. and maybe I’m just using better coping skills and therapy is helping me which in. turn helps me feel better about my mental health and how to handle it.
I’m too tired to really think about that any more though.
Tonight, I’m really just grateful for the tiny little human who called me her hero today. On my very worst days she’s still there, loving me and giving me an extra reason to get up and fight this mental battle. She’s really the sweetest and I honestly feel like God knew exactly what He was doing when He sent her to us. To me.
So even on the days when I feel like I can’t really function at full capacity because my brain Is so tired, there’s still this little person who loves me and looks up to me and sees me as a hero. Moments like tonight make being a mom even more worth it ❤️
After I prayed with Von and she grabbed my face and said “mommy, you’re my hero.” I tried to snap a picture. But the light was already off and it was dark and this was the result. But hey, we’re making memories over here.