Do you ever have those days where you wake up motivated and ready to chase your dreams and accomplish your goals?
I had that kind of morning today.
Even though I got to sleep in a bit today, Von was still sleeping when I woke up and I was able to write for almost an hour and a half! I was feeling pumped and excited about my novel and about my future as a writer.
Von woke up and we had breakfast and played until it was her nap time.
In the middle of her nap I was hit with so many feelings.
that I wasn’t good enough (so why try to be a writer)
that I wasn’t writing the “right” story (because I have so many ideas)
and on and on.
My thoughts started to spiral.
When Von woke up we had to head up to the leasing office to pick up a package that was delivered there. We were out for maybe 10 minutes but it gave me fresh perspective.
On our way back to our apartment, Von wanted to take every path we passed. I held her hand and gently guided her to stay on the path that was the easiest and would get us hope the fastest.
Some of the paths she wanted to go down would have gotten us home just fine. And sometimes she wanted to walk through flowers.
As we were walking I wondered “I wonder if this is how God feels about us sometimes. He knows the best way for us to get home. There are other ways we can go, different things we can do (that are also good) and there are some paths we shouldn’t take. But He’s always there, holding our hands, ready to lead us.”
It was a simple yet profound thought.
I want to be better at listening to God’s voice. We talked about Hearing God’s Voice yesterday at church and how sometimes we just need to keep walking and doing good and trust that direction will come (when it doesn’t come right away.)
Today I was reminded of that. That I don’t need to worry or freak out because I know that He is up there listening to my prayers, and ready to take me by the hand and lead me along.