I've been thinking about Purpose a lot lately, trying to find my own and also figuring out how I can help other people find their own purpose. The other day I woke and thought "well, here we go again," as I felt like I dragged myself out of bed to get my day started. First breakfast, then getting ready, then figuring out what to do with a one-year-old all day, making dinner and then heading to bed in the evening. Those are the basics of my day and sometimes they feel... well, not purposeful. But, a few things have been on my mind that I wanted to share today. First, when it comes down to it, we all have a purpose because God gave it to us. Christ gave it to us when He commanded us to love God and love others. I've really been thinking about this a lot. When we go about our days thinking about how we can love and serve God and others, our lives have more meaning and we are able to find purpose.
For a long time, I thought my purpose was my job.
I feel like a lot of people feel this way. Because we do spend so much time working and doing our jobs that it begins to feel like that is our purpose in life. But, our job isn't our soul purpose, rather I feel like our job helps us have more purpose. As we work we are able to serve and love others. Everything we do can come back to those two great commandments. After all of these thoughts, I was still struggling though. I wanted real meaning in my life and I was at a loss of where to start. But then I got an idea. It came while I was listening to the book The Year of Less. The author talks about how she did sort of a life audit and saw where she was putting her money and where she wanted to put it. And then I had an idea, where was I putting my time? Where did I want to be putting my time? Then I was listening to the newest episode of the Cultivate Your Life podcast and I heard Lara say almost that exact thing. And I knew I needed to do a life audit.
Where am I really spending my time? Where are you?
I consistently feel like my life is slipping away through endless distractions. I felt like there was so much noise, and when I looked around, there was so much noise. The TV was almost always on because, during my deepest days of anxiety, that's where I most often turned for comfort. If the TV wasn't on, it was music or a podcast or an audiobook. And while I do know that I love audiobooks and podcasts, music and TV, I realized I wanted to consume less. I'm still working on my life audit. Figuring out where I spend my time and what I really want to be doing with my time and my life. I'll keep you updated on my blog as I work through this process, but I wanted to invite you to do the same. If you're struggling to find purpose, first think about God's purpose for us and ponder what that means to you. Then, take a step back and look at your life with an open heart, be ready to make changes. I know that I can find more purpose in my life and that you can too. I think a big part of this is realizing what we're focusing on and what we want to be focusing on. This post feels more like some of my old posts, where I feel like I'm having more of a conversation with you and I want to get back to that. I want to share more about what's happening in my life, especially the real and hard stuff. So, I'm admitting it, I'm struggling to find purpose and I hope that we can journey together to find more meaning and purpose in our lives. So, this is sort of my letter to myself and to you, the woman who's struggling to find purpose. We can find purpose in our lives. God has given us all the tools we need. Over the next few weeks and months, I hope we can work together to find more meaning in our lives and create the life that we've always dreamed of. It's in reach, I can feel it. I hope you can too.