This Stage of Life

I know a lot of moms love the newborn stage and say it was/is their favorite.  

I’m happy for those people, but I wasn’t one of them. 

I was so exhausted (and I really really don’t do well on that little sleep), my boobs hurt, I was sore from pushing out a baby. And while I did love smelling her newborn smell and having snuggles 24/7, it wasn’t my favorite stage.  

I’m really loving this stage. Everyday Von is learning new words and new things. She loves to have dance parties and snuggle in the morning. Her favorite thing in the morning is to go to the fridge, try to open it, and ask for chocolate 😂 girl, I got you. Just after we we breakfast.  

I love how she smiles at me, hugs me, and gives me random kisses. I love that she falls asleep in my arms for most naps and I wouldn’t have it any other way.  

We read books and dance and laugh a lot. We also both cry sometimes.  

Today we played with this little dog we have. I would chase her with it and say “woof woof woof” and then she would say “woof woof woof” as she ran away laughing.  

I really struggled in the beginning of being a mom.  

Now I'm trying to enjoy this stage that we’re in and that’s my goal for every next stage of life.  

There are hard and beautiful parts of every stage, and I want to be better at seeing more of the good.  


What I Learned From My Baby Today

As I was sitting in the bathroom, watching Von play in the tub. I felt that familiar feeling of 'not enough' creep in. I asked myself if I really was 'enough of a mom' to talk about motherhood and mom life here on my blog and on social media.

Even as I type that, it makes me laugh a little. Of course I'm 'enough of a mom' because I am a mom. Whether you have one baby or twelve, you're a mother. The amount of kids doesn't change that fact.

And then I started thinking. One of my favorite bloggers, Erica, mention a while ago how as women we're constantly bombarded with messages that often seem to conflict. 'You are enough' and 'you were made for more' how can we be enough but also be made for more at the same time?

Tonight, as I watched Von play in the tub it hit me.

Von is enough. Just as she is. She's perfect and smart and learning and happy and she's a baby. Which means she's also made for more, she isn't going to be a baby forever. Every day she grows a little more, learns a little more, and becomes a little more.

We're like that too. We're all God's children. And because of Him, we are enough. We are alive and being alive makes us enough, just as we are. But just like little babies, we're also made for more. We all have greatness inside of us. We can all do more than we think we can.

I think I sometimes get caught up in this though. The need to be more right now, right away. Even though no one said that I needed to have all of my goals and dreams accomplished right now. That's often an expectation that I put on myself.

Tonight Von taught me that I am enough and that I'm made for more. That I have so much potential, and that I don't have to hit that success right now. I can grow, little by little, day by day just like she does.

We are enough. You are enough. And you are also made for more.