I’m saying goodbye to blogging.
And oh how it hurts to type those words, a lot more than I expected. For 10+ years, blogging has been a part of my life in one way or another.
I’ve been writing about my life and books and faith for so long that I don’t even know how to stop blogging (and to be honest, I’ll still be sharing posts occasionally). But things are going to look a lot different here.
The other day I was sitting at my desk while Von played. The afternoon had been spent with me scrambling to do something blog related (I can’t even remember what right this second). We’d had dinner and our night was winding down. That was when the thought hit me.
It’s time to let go of blogging.
I honestly blinked in surprise.
As a Christian woman, I’m not a stranger to thoughts that come Into my mind. I feel that often, these bigger thoughts, the ones that really stand out, come straight from God.
But why was He telling me this now?
I mean, I finally started making money as a blogger, I had a good routine, and I loved writing about books and coming up with posts to share here. People are reading my blog, it’s a good thing.
But it’s not the right thing, at least, not right now.
For years I chased the dream of being a full-time blogger. I LOVE reading blogs (and will continue to do so) and for a while, I even thought about starting a blog coaching service or running a blog all about how to help new bloggers get started. Neither of those felt right, so I kept chugging along.
It’s not so much that I don’t want to be a blogger or even that I’ll stop blogging completely. I can assure you I’ll still be posting, but it won’t be as regular or on a schedule.
Because my dream is to be an author.
It’s what I love, and it’s what I feel called to do, especially right now.
And maybe you’re thinking, well Taylor, can’t you do both? Yeah, I could do both. But recently I’ve noticed that when I have some time to write or edit my novel, I turn to my blog instead, even if things are all set for my next post. I’m scheduling pins or reading more about affiliate links, or literally anything to avoid what I actually want to do, which is work on my book.
Fear has been holding me back for so long. Fear of succeeding. Fear of failing. Fear of not loving writing as much as I do now when it becomes my ‘job’. Even though I know that if I’m telling the stories in my heart, I’m going to love it for a long time.
The fear has been an excuse for so long, and in a way, I’ve let my blog become an excuse too.
I still love blogging. This blog will still be here, and as I said, I’ll be posting occasionally. But for now, I’m taking a step back. Because writing books is something I want to do, and it’s something I want to do well, which means I need to give it the attention it deserves.
Even if the work is messy, even when it’s hard and I don’t know what I’m doing. I taught myself almost everything I know about blogging, and I’m pretty proud of where that got me.
I hired an editor, she’ll read my book in January of 2021, which seems so far away (with how 2020 has been going) BUT my book is not close to ready for her to see it yet, and I need to work on it. It’s just something I feel in my whole body and soul.
So, it’s time to let go of blogging. Even though that feels like I’m saying goodbye or see you later to a dear friend.
It’s time to make my novel better and then once this one is ready, to start writing the next one. And I am so so so excited for that journey, even if right now it sort of feels like I’m about to leap and then free fall. I’m ready, at least, part of me is ready.
I’ll still be over on Instagram talking about books and mental health and life. Plus, I’ll still be sharing book club updates here on my blog each month. And you can sign up below to get the bi-weekly newsletter that I’ll still be sending out with mini updates and all the good books I’m reading.
Thank you so much dear friend, whether you’ve been following and reading my blog for years or just found me. I am so grateful for you and I hope you’ll come with me as I enter this new stage. This blogging journey has been the best, and while I know it’s not over, it’s changing, and that’s something that I have to accept.
So, until next time friend, I’ll talk soon.